My heart has been wanting some space to just pause lately, but I felt like there was too much going on. I was gaining too much momentum on several projects and tackling problems with my children at full speed. Every morning, as I’ve prayed the past weeks, I found myself begging for clarity and for some breathing room but to still have energy to run full steam ahead. Those things do not go together and God knows better than I do about that. And like always, He answered my pleas…just not in the way I expected.
As I sat listening to the leaders of my church, speaking to the women last weekend - the challenge was issued to take a 10 day break from any media that distracts me from the most important things in my life. I immediately felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. Until that moment, I hadn’t realized that I was just waiting for someone to give me the permission to turn off the world. But, there was the call to action I had been unknowingly begging for…Pause.
Four days into the challenge, I was feeling a sense of relief but still felt a little disconnected. So, I started praying for an opportunity to just be home with my family with no pressing obligations. Want to know what happened? Hurricane Michael roared through town cancelling school, washing out roads, and knocking out our power for 30 hours. And while I would like to say it was awesome and I enjoyed every moment of it, it was a lesson in patience and definitely helped to solidify answers to a couple things I have been pondering (ahem, homeschooling).
I still have a few days left on my media fast and I am still fully enjoying my downtime and making progress on some personal projects that have been on my to do list for a long time. I’m spending a lot of time just sitting in the quiet moments and trying to gain some clarity on what my next steps will be. Clarity that I know does not come when I am on the go and never being still. I feel refreshed and also like I need to change course on a couple of things - and I feel like I know which direction to go as I change course.
Have you taken time to Pause lately? Setting aside media for 10 days is a great way to take your own pause…give it a try…I think you’ll be surprised by how you feel.